I continue on the only path that is set before me.  I am forced by outward circumstances to become fully solid within myself, compacted and completely one with myself.  It seems to me that in the past all my cells were spread out everywhere.  People used all the parts of me and didn’t care about me at all.  I have been on a long journey of bringing those cells back to myself alone.  OMG!  The journey has been so difficult and painful.  I feel as if only a few cells are left out there, but it’s difficult to bring those back and make them stick because in doing so I have become compacted and me alone.  I know I’ve written songs about becoming complete within oneself.  I didn’t understand my own music when I wrote it.  Neediness forces dependence, and any form of dependence causes one person to be less than the other.  The one thing that I’ve always wanted more than anything is equal friendships, but even wanting those friendships at all causes me to be dependent on another person to give that to me.  The only way that I can be independent and have no form of dependence is to fully be my own equal friend and find ways to meet my need for friendship from myself alone.  I’m gettin’ there………to the place where my dear friend is ME.