I continue on my journey of finding all completion and fulfillment from within myself alone.  I had a chat over lunch with someone yesterday about this topic.  Her response was that it is unnatural to want to be complete alone without other human beings, that it is not a normal human way of being.  She is absolutely right.  This is extremely painful for me to go down this road, because it’s done from the point of view of having been rejected by every human being that I’ve tried to go to for support and friendship and help.  I have had NO CHOICE BUT TO GO DOWN THIS ROAD.  My response to her was that the world is made up of people who have given away their souls to try to fit into and belong to something other than their own true selves.  I really believe that the world would run on a whole different course if we could all fully and truly be who we REALLY are.  Of course what person even knows who he/she really is.  We’re all so busy trying to fit into a TRULY FUCKED UP WORLD!  So my own rejection experiences have forced me to search into who I really am.  And now I’m working on FULLY BECOMING my true self.  We can talk about what would make a better world from morning to night.  Someone has to BE THE CHANGE WITHIN THEIR OWN BEING.  “Be the change that you want in the world”.  My own life situation gives me nowhere to turn but to myself.  Myself is a beautiful person on the inside with huge amounts to give.  HUGE!  But first I must TRULY be me!