Everyday I drop deeply into myself before I start the day’s activities.  I am changing and growing and becoming stronger inch by inch.  I am barely attached to the earth, definitely not down in the maze.  My body is given enough for survival, but my body is not me.  Therefore I feel as if I do not exist on the earth.  I exist in my beautiful garden space, and I have given up all efforts to stay attached to the earth.  People on earth have been utterly clear that they do not want this real me.  They have tried to murder me.  They have shut me out.  Any effort to try to connect to anyone at all as the real me brings me massive pain and rejection.  So I live the real me inside my little cabin house alone, and I go out into the world and smile and get through the day.  The real me knows peace, love, freedom, how to fly.  The  only sadness that I know is that I don’t have any way to relay this beautiful way of living to anyone else.  Why why does earth shut out what’s real and beautiful.  The old man that I used to talk with always said, “Yes, it’s all beautiful where you are, but I don’t have time for that.  I’ve got to get on with my life”.  Another person said to me, “Yes, I can see that the place where you’re going is very good and right, but NOBODY at all goes there”.  Then these people, whom I loved, threw me out of their lives.  When anyone gets close to me and feels the love and peace, they run away fast and hard.  Why are we so afraid to change to a better way of living.  Why does the earth choose the maze, the lower levels of life, and call it life and living.  It’s like so many people know, but NO ONE will come here, so I’ve had to slowly and gradually let go of everyone, (it’s more like they let go of me), and walk here and live here by myself alone.  I have a lot of years left to live.  I don’t know what I’m going to do.  But the thought comes to me again that we are not disconnected from each other.  We are a part of one another.  What if I’m the first person to actually move all the way here, to brave all the odds and move all of me here.  What if that is the beginning of a new earth.  Only time will tell.