Today is my birthday.  Again I wake up alone and face a long lonely road.  I have a task in front of me that I am FINALLY not fighting anymore.  My task is to find ALL COMPLETION AND FULFILLMENT from witin myself alone and to come to a place within me where there is no anger left in me at the world that has forced me to this place.  My deepest wish throughout my lifetime has been to be loved and wanted.  That deepest wish has been denied me in EVERY relationship that I’ve ever had; daughter, niece, sister, wife, mother, friend, coworker, girlfriend, etc.  All anger and pain about the way my life has been is dying within me.  I realize that I am SUCH a beautiful person, and I am FILLED with love.  That love is ALL for me to live with and grow with and become fully content with.  I have had some guilt to not be sharing my vast resources with the world, but everytime I think of it I remember that I’ve been abandoned, rejected, beheaded, tarred and feathered or merely tolerated because I’m in a body and located on earth.  It’s perfectly okay to be alone on my birthday because the love that I have inside me is growing fuller and stronger.  WOW!  I’m utterly amazed at myself that I can say these things and feel this way.  I’ve had such an intense longing ALL MY LEFE to have SOMEONE care about me.  Letting go of that intense need and realizing that I CAN CARE FOR MYSELF has been the accomplishment of my lifetime.  I always wonder where this is all leading, but I see myself growing stronger and stronger in this amazing space.