Just found out that I will be spending yet another Thanksgiving in isolation.  I know anyone reading this will think I’m completely whacked, but I feel that I am being punished by all of society for refusing to lower myself and play by the rules.  I am a woman, and playing by the rules means that I must go braindead and not see what I see and not know what I know.  The rewards and perks for playing by the rules are many.  In my case, though, I only was put down and trampled, as I’ve repeatedly said.  I wouldn’t have sex with married men who pretended to be my friend, but when they found out I wouldn’t go to bed with them on the side, the whole nature of the ”friendship” changed.  I wouldn’t have sex with unmarried men who, when they found out that I wanted friendship along with sex, shut me out.  I wouldn’t force myself to believe any longer in a repressive and brainless religion, so my family kicked me out.  My friends from my married days all kicked me out because they were lowering themselves in order to live “happily” with their husbands, and they felt that I didn’t do that, and therefore caused my husband to divorce me.  The church that I worked in, the minister wanted sex on the side.  No telling how many women he treated like that behind closed doors.  So I pay a huge price in aloneness in order to stand up and be the beautiful and real woman that I am.  I am only going to continue to grow stronger.  I won’t be crushed, even though the entire world has tried to crush me!